love, esther ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- dream. talked with dad; everything is kind of okay. still strained, but i'm basically going to just tell them that i'm leaving and go instead of ask from now on. fuck niceties, basically. jealously is rearing its ugly head tonight. and there's a fucking cricket outside my room and it's driving me crazy. everything is driving me crazy. arguhhhhh. i also had a vivid dream last night about being 7 months pregnant, and then having a c section and giving birth to a baby that had 6 fingers on its left hand, and obviously was a premie, and had blue blue eyes with red in them. weird. i woke up in a cold cold sweat with both hands stretched across my stomach. i think that my subconscious was super freaked out too. just... i wish that things were a little different. just a little, though. 1:06 am - Wednesday, Oct. 17, 2007 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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